Caregiving and Receiving
he caregiving and receiving for a care receiver adjusting to a new and different existence includes observing his responses. My ears, eyes, and brain have to be alert. My heart has to be open. I have to ask questions of not just my husband but of spiritual helpers because my husband chose to speak less — caregiving and receiving guides a caregiver to request and receive assistance from traditional and unusual places.
The Goddess Within by Allison L. Williams Hill
Caregiving and Receiving Life Changes
We had to reinvent how we live. During the weekend after Valentine's Day, a friend reminded me that I don't have to do it all alone. We were talking about a mutual friend who made the transition. I told her the reason why I reconnected with her was because of him. He told me, "You don't have to do this alone. But you feel you have to. Call all the healers you know and ask for help." He gave me her phone number. I thanked her again for her healing work and time. Conversations are limited to a few spiritually motivated friends.
Sound by Allison L. Williams Hill
When a paternal aunt was in hospital, I brought her into my lab and passed energy through her feet. Her body glowed. I was confident that she would improve and remain on the planet. When I removed my hands, I observed the glow reduce, and a thin aura was around her body. I did it again and saw it repeat.
This aunt passed. I got that she was not to stay in her body.
There were several opportunities with people before her that allowed me to experience the healing process and a person's decision. I sent energy to people. The person's choices must be allowed. If the energy is to improve the physical form, the person will use it for that purpose. If the person has other intentions, they must be honored.
I was certain that my husband would come through what he was experiencing. I work to save his life. My husband had other intentions. I would have given the world to have him stay. That does not make sense.
I would not be in the world if I gave it to have him stay. An Akashic Angel reading administered several years ago by a great teacher contained the words, "As I am with him, so we evolve. His life, he has laid at my feet. He is a very elevated being. He has come in all humility because he loves me." It was a part of a plan we devised while in our spiritual states.
Grief and sorrow grow because we think we lose those who cross over. We grieve their demise because we will no longer see them or interact with them physically. We will miss them. They move to another state of existence and continue. It is conceivable that they support the living from that state. Therefore, death is not useless. My husband is still with me. He addresses other issues where he is. I feel his energy surrounding me many times during my waking hours.
Caregiving and Receiving and Defining What Life and Death Mean
The difference between the dead and the living are physical bodies. In-body, or corporeal, is what we move in. Incorporeal is the state without a body. Dead people do not have bodies. But it does not mean they are "dead" or they do not exist. Years after my husband transitioned, I saw a person's brilliant purple aura. She read the Bible daily. She shared that a person we both knew who crossed over was her cousin. She stated, "Once you're gone, you're gone." I did not argue. Religious people are in the position their institutions want them to be. They rely on officers of the church to shape their spiritual growth.
Clem in Guyana by Allison L. Williams Hill
I wrote about ghost shows, The Dead Files, Ghost Hunters, etc. It is disturbing that spoken words do not acknowledge those who have passed. To paraphrase a witness. "I was closing the bar. I heard a sound and looked in the mirror above the bar. I saw a man leaning against the column and told him the bar was closed. He did not move. I turned around and saw no one there."
Step into their shoes for a moment. You experience a life-ending event. You transition. The Gnosis and the Law is a book that explains what occurs when you move into that dimension. But we will skip that. You are you without a body. Consider: how would you feel if you attempted to get someone's attention who exists in a physical state where average vision is within a narrow energy band? As far as you are concerned, you are you. You may behave and react like you did when you had a body. Let's say you succeeded in getting attention but could not hold it. The person blinks and does not see you. They relate the experience ending with, "…but nobody was there." How would you feel? Nobody?! Now, you are a nobody. You do exist, but differently.
Peace Allison L. Williams Hill
A ghost show included gathering evidence to verify or debunk client, staff, and visitor experiences on a battleship that served during World War II. A REM POD blinked several times in direct response to questions. These were the souls of soldiers who served this country, manipulating it. The investigators did not acknowledge their sacrifices. Were they on board to serve this country against other noncorporeal energy? No one asked.
Whitley Streiber, a well-known author, commented about his wife Ann, with whose energy he meditates and abides, as I do with my husband. He said she calls herself "One who was known as Ann" and said we humans act as if they do not exist. Unless one is trained to acknowledge the presence of the noncorporeal, people will continue to react with their five senses. They would never be able to comprehend that auditoriums or music centers could be standing room only with beings of light. Ghost shows will continue to be viewed for entertainment purposes only.
Caregiving and Receiving and Greed
Colonizers observe what native people do. They absorb their knowledge and threaten the creators to prevent them from using their work. They took the power and made it theirs. It is weaponized and used against people who have no idea that abilities like this were developed over centuries by people who neither looked like them nor had the need to create systems similar to the colonizers. What worked for them was already in place; if it didn't look or represent the colonizers' rule of law, then according to the colonizers, the other culture had no value.
My education in spiritual work began in the United States with the Silva Mind Control Method. I studied and practiced with Rev. Raphael Azarius Francisco di Angelo in his "Gateway: Opening Up to Spirit" program three years before I met my husband.
I attended a mystery school, Delphi University of Spiritual Studies. We moved to the Caribbean, my fourth school, where my husband experienced heinous changes to his mental, emotional, and physical states. People intend harm and request harm be sent to others daily. These are anonymous attackers who satisfy this demand. The practitioners may have been the first to declare me emotional and with less intelligence.
Shame and ridicule were excellent distractions to throw off the scent.
When a person sits with a light source, like a candle, to concentrate, it is to focus the will. Meditation focuses the will. Studies have documented instantaneous, non-local results. Quantum physics made scientists aware that the observer affects the outcome of a transaction. Scientific experiments repeatedly proved this.
It is my experience that people who practice negative energy manipulation and projection do the work and wait. They have the luxury of time, the power of the presence of will that it will happen. They believe that
pronouncing their desires will take place. They wait.
Caregiving and Receiving and Energy Work
I do energy work and meditation. I connect with healers around the world. We work in different groups,
projecting healing energy to people, other living things, and places. I ask them to project energies to my husband. I ask for protection from people who manipulated and projected malevolent energy to stop my husband from doing what he wants to do. Many do this type of work. Many people earn from it; there is no way to convict those who harm. All evidence is in the ether. The justice systems negate this can exist, let alone that it does exist.
I apply what my friends suggest. I use different cultural practices. I am married to none of them. That gives me the power to select and create my "set of special skills."
I have several websites for which I create content. I write about my experiences with my husband. When he sleeps, I create psychic art that I hope people find appealing for purchase. My goal is to earn passive income through all of them.
My husband has often expressed that I use my abilities to sense his wants rather than expecting him to speak them. I respond that finances, his health, and needs move me to the practical/logical side and away from my intuitive side. I feel anxiety when I think about being able to address all that he requires and my shortfalls. My studies and experiences with alternative healing, spiritual work, and art serve to bring composure. I must, however, remember to ask.
Accepting that efforts will not yield the desired results from the start can shut off the flow of possibilities. If the thoughts shift towards "Ask all, anyway," answers beyond what is needed, and perhaps not even considered, may be given. Energy follows thoughts.
I meditated daily and felt Spirit's presence more every single day. Spirit is the best place to ask. If the feeling is right, then go forward. If the feeling is not, rephrase the question. If you do not embrace Spirit, still, ask yourself if what you want to do feels right. Ask if Agnes knows of a resource or if Theresa and John could help with a task. If they are unable to, ask for a suggestion. You may become the "go-to" person for those three in your quests to improve your life and your care receiver. I created an Angel poster with a slogan in 2012.
Strength in resolve is really the focus of will. Watching my husband, I sometimes lose confidence in the dream of finding a home in the States where I could care for him. He wanted to get a mastiff this time after raising two greyhounds. We wanted a house of peace. He could consult with potential and experienced small business owners. I could create. Meditation helps me galvanize my thoughts, feelings, and power. So, when the breakdown occurs, it is time to rebuild. Friends call as if they received a message to call. I cannot help but smile when it happens. They remind me to ask for help.
Caregiving and Receiving to My Brother
Several years after my husband died, I was helping my brother. He experienced many physical projects and was receiving care. I visited him in rehab. He got a roommate whose physical stature reminded me of my husband.
He did not move in the bed. When I saw him sitting at the dining table in the community space, his shoulders looked drawn, and his face was so far down that he had to look up. I watched him. He made attempts to see me.
I sat with my brother and asked him to watch his roommate overnight. I explained that I would attempt to help him. My brother agreed.I did energy work, then brought him into my laboratory. I felt sure that there was progress.
I revisited my brother. His door was open. He was sitting in his chair watching television. He saw me walk towards his space. He looked down, shaking his head."I don't know what you did, but he started moving. He fell to the floor. I went to pick him up, seeing if he was alright. I called for the nurse to get him." I looked towards the other bed. It was empty. I asked if he was alright. He said he was, and relatives came to take him home.
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